Changes part 2

So...once again the "plan" has changed. We're no longer looking for another apartment and are hoping to be able to buy a house sometime early 2008. Sometimes we're kind of indecisive, and it take a little while before we're able to sort through both of our thoughts and come to an agreement.

That means I probably will stop actively looking for another job - I'll just keep my eyes open in case a good opportunity comes along. I DO NOT plan to be a lifer there. And...if I can stick it out until next August - I won't have to pay back a cent!

Changes......

A year ago......

• I was studying for the bar
• I was interviewing at law firms
• I was offered the job that I currently have
• I was looking for an apartment in Rochester
• I was engaged and planning my wedding

Today.....

• I have passed the bar and been admitted as an attorney (that was a while ago, now)
• I am looking for a new job
• I'm married - for almost 9 months
• We're looking for a different apartment in Rochester

Some things have obviously changed, but it seems as though my general stress level hasn't. I haven't coped well with the real world - still semi-stuck in a student mentality. And I'm seriously unhappy at my current job. But, it pays the bills, has decent hours, and I'm not entirely sure what it is that I actually want to do. Maybe doing something that you actually want to do is a pipe dream., but I'm not quite ready to give up on that yet. I feel like I'm in some terrible state of limbo - where things aren't right, but I don't know what to do to fix them, so I'm just floating on until I get to land somewhere.

And so we're looking for a new apartment now. A few months ago we were looking for a house. But then we found out how much the rent was going to go up and it's just not worth it. I mean, where we live is nice and all, but not worth that price. But, I suppose if we can't find anywhere else we'll just stay here.

I feel like I should be doing more with my life. I'm young and I don't have kids yet.....so this is the time, right? Instead of 7 years from now when I have 2 crying kids to come home to everyday....when I have to think of them as well and how my choices impact the entire family. Right now, my choices impact my husband and me, and he is very supportive of everything I do.

Now is the time.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference